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Posted by: Felipe Crook | March 1, 2008

I AM good enough.

I originally wanted to title this post “I’m not good enough” but I didn’t want to perpetuate that belief any more. I just closed on a huge transaction yesterday which will help me refinance my house from my partner, pay my 2006 taxes off, pay my mortgage for the next two months, and keep me up to date on all my bills. I should feel overjoyed about this wealth coming into my life, but for some reason I can seem to shake this fear. I have been broken up for three weeks now from my partner of two and a half years. It has been odd, exciting, freeing, scary, uncertain….I’ve gone through a gamut of emotions lately. I am reading some great books to keep me grounded and on my path which are great, but I have moments of….I’m not sure. I am writing this post directly from coming back from my accountant who does my taxes….maybe that’s a bad place to write a spiritual post. LOL. Oh silly me….what I’ve come to realize is I still have some issues with feeling deserving. The first part of the year, I attracted so much into my life and I’m continuing to attract it. I just feel held back by a lot of things. Maybe I need to stop, sit down, evaluate my goals and readjust my thinking. Are the activities I’m doing match my goals? Am I doing one thing and hoping for another? At what point do you abandon what you think you should do to hold onto your vision? How much am I willing to sacrifice to get my goals? Who says I have to sacrifice? Life is easy and wonderful. I expect great things to happen to me and I hope great things happen to those who expect it. I believe the universe is sending me everything that I’m focusing on. So what am I focusing on? Why do I still have jealousy over someone who wasn’t right for me? Why do I get discouraged about projects that haven’t even started yet? Is that an indication that I shouldn’t be working on that project? Am I trying to force a project to fit my vision when they contradict themselves? I’m starting to listen to my feelings more and more to get clarity, but what if I’m feeling fear? Then what? Fear is a useless emotion that robs me of my passion, my path, my purpose….any other “P” words? Persistence? Perseverance? So what emotions do I listen to and what emotions do I acknowledge an drop? Sigh….just when I think I have things figured out, they shift or I have a “sad” day. I guess without the valley’s the mountains don’t look as beautiful.

Posted in Spirituality | Tags: I am good enough, self esteem

Responses

You are having a battle between your ego and your higher self. When you are having emotions like jealousy and fear, that is your ego trying to take control. Those are the emotions that you don’t listen to. Acknowledge and drop. When your higher-self is giving you a negative feeling, that is when it is your intuition is giving you a warning. And you will notice that when you get a bad vibe it doesn’t necessarily affect you in a bad way. You can just sense that things are off, and it makes you want to reevaluate.
You have to ask yourself, what situations are making you feel bad, and stay away from them. It is hard to be in this stage because we automatically fall back into our old bad habits. But if you are aware, you can create new good habits that will help you feel better. You are doing well. Analyzing, talking about it. It will be uncomfortable for a little while, but then you will realize a lot about yourself.

By: Tricia on March 1, 2008
at 10:49 am

I’ve actually found fear to be one of the most essential feelings ever. Fear lets you know when you’re not aligned with your subconscious. Fear helps you to understand where you are on an emotional scale and where you would like to move from. Be sure not to push feelings off to the side - they are your communicators.

By: Derik Klein on March 5, 2008
at 6:41 am