I try to make things happen. I am impatient. That combo of qualities can make me feel stressed at times. It also makes me try to force things to be the way I want them to be, instead of accepting them for what they are….or letting them evolve and become what they are supposed to be. I had a friend in town a few weeks ago who said to me “I’m going to let the situation reveal itself.” I was fascinated by that statement. A situation will become what it’s supposed to be regardless of my stressful thought or feelings right? I can have an idea of what i want, hold to that vision, and let the situation come into my life. That’s all good, but that persistent voice in the back of my head for things to happen quickly is so loud that I try to manipulate or force situations, people, business, clients, my body. You name it, and I have been impatient with it at some point in my life. WHY!?! What’s the rush?!

I spoke to one of my friends about this last night, this need to arrive. Well, the thing I’m realizing is that I don’t think I EVER will “Arrive”. Just saying that statement makes me a little anxious, like I am not doing enough. That idea that once I get this concept or know who I am, then life will be easier, or I’ll be happier. I will never arrive. Period. New challenges will continue to make me grow and adapt and learn and evolve until I die. So what’s the rush? What’s this need to get there, or to “know” everything, or to be a certain way? I’m not sure. What’s the compulsion to be a better person? I have no idea. The only thing I do know is that need will never go away, and I will constantly be out of the moment if I continue to think that I haven’t arrived. That thought comes up, I acknowledge it, and I think “Oh, silly ego. Destinations are for kids. Enjoy the journey.” That’s the only thing I can do: BE PRESENT.

This video is a great reminder. Plant don’t rush the process and they’re made up of the same infinite knowledge we are. Be like plants.

Pumpkin male flower time lapse from Timelapser on Vimeo.